t has been days since I have cried. I am not sure how this is possible since I cry at Grey’s Anatomy weekly and at sappy nostalgic commercials almost all the time. I feel like I need to cry but it’s just not happening.
I have tried listening to sad country music.
I have tried sitting totally alone in the quiet.
I have watched Grey’s Anatomy twice.
Heck, I have even (though not on purpose) listened to part of the St. Jude’s telethon on the radio.
Don’t get me wrong I don’t WANT to be so sad that I cry. It is just that I know it is there. I can feel it behind my eyes. This is NOT normal for me and it’s “freaking me out” so to speak because I know when it comes it will be big, and the longer the crying doesn’t happen the bigger it will when it does.
Some girls want diamonds, I just want tears.