reverb#10

Moment.

Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors).
(Author: Ali Edwards)

I had to sit with this question for awhile. I can distinctly remember a time in Octoeber 2009 when I felt the most clarity I had ever felt in my life, but a time in 2010 when I felt most alive?

Looking back I can see it was a tough year for me, but as I was going through it I never really thought much more than, “OK this is what life is.” Well, OK there were a few times when I truly felt like life was kicking the $h!t out of me, but let’s focus on the positive since that is the question.

Honeslty I don’t know if there was one moment. For me there were 101 little moments when I felt like I was coming alive all over again in 2010.

Each time I did something on my own as a newly single person after my divorce and felt strong and I I felt most alive.

I could be driving down the highway and just the right song would come on the radio, and the sun would be just right, and I would feel pretty, I would feel like I was most alive.

Whenever one of me nieces would smile at me or say something that only a toddler would come up with, when they would share that moment with me, I would feel most alive.

When a friend in need called me to ask for help, when I know asking for help is not something she does, I would feel most alive.

Watching my dog sleep with the contentment that only a dog can have after a long walk, I would feel most alive.

The constant thing about all these moments is that I can vividly remember BEING in those moments. The sky was clearer, almost impossibly crisp. The sounds around me were clear as day. I had a sense of “this is where I am supposed to be, right now, and if this is as good as it gets I am so incredibly lucky to have my life as it is right now, in this moment with all that I have.”

Yeah OK corney? Maybe.

For me, in 2010 life was not just about one moment of feeling most alive. It was about all the little ways that I started to breathe again, started to come alive as me again that I really feel grateful for.

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