I had an amazing four days off. It was so nice to be able to check out of work mentality and really enjoy a nice stretch of time away from the office. It’s a quiet Monday night here after a day of bustling around in Boston; visited the new Planetarium at the Museum of Science – very cool and had lunch in Kendall Square.
The whole weekend was BBQ-ing, reading, ice cream, watermelon, and really relaxing. It was exactly what I needed. I started and finished a whole book. The best part was that I got to spend a few days in a row with Chris which seems like a natural next step. It was great, no pressure and much nicer than bouncing around on my own. It makes me kind of giddy the way my stomach does little flip flops of butterflies whenever we talk….
It’s funny, getting to know someone, dating again at this age. In some ways it is so much easier, you know the dance, the “don’t push too hard”, “let it evolve naturally, etc. and in other ways there is just more history with each person, more navigating to do. More cautious. More to consider, especially dating someone with kids, but I have to say it’s nice. Nice feeling part of something, a relationship again.
I feel very happy…and very vulnerable – new relationships have a way of doing that I suppose. It’s like learning to trust all over again without being afraid of being hurt and and quite frankly that scares the crap out of me. Letting go of control is a new concept for me 😉 but I think I’m doing OK. Learning as I go this time around to relax and let this evolve as it will, and enjoying the journey.