Where have I been lately? What have I been up to you are wondering? It’s pretty simple really. I have been trying to get my arms around this new promotion that I got, and keep my head above water as I learn all the moving parts, new responsibilities and try to do it all with a smile – or at least without crying.
My gut has always told me that I don’t really want to have people reporting to me. Unfortunately what my gut is telling me does not align with what is necessary to move my career forward. So here I am – with 3 people reporting to me. I am trying to learn as much as I can and keep an upbeat attitude. But at the same time, the reality is the same. I really don’t like having people report to me and it is causing me a huge amount of stress.
I like being responsible for my work. I like being responsible for myself.
I don’t like being responsible for other people’s work. Funny I used to be a teacher and I liked that, but this is very different.
Why didn’t I say no? Two reasons really. (1) I absolutely love reporting to my boss. He is the best manager I have had in all my years of working, and if I did not take this position, it would have been given to someone else and I would have reported to that person, and (2) it would have been career suicide. I would have not been offered it another time, and it would have pretty much stagnated my career, and to a lesser extent (3) if I do it for a short time, it will look great on my resume, and I am hoping that if I do it for a short, a few years time, I can then move into a position that does not involve managing direct reports.
I am not sure why I care about #3 since I am pretty much sure that I will be staying where I am until I retire – the benefits, the pay, the location, the people, are all great. But who knows what life will bring.
For now, one day at a time – and honestly it hasn’t been all work. In my next post I will update on the perils, joys, and laughable events of dating.