“When anxious, uneasy and bad thoughts come, I go to the sea, and the sea drowns them out with its great wide sounds, cleanses me with its noise, and imposes a rhythm upon everything in me that is bewildered and confused.”
– Rainer Maria Rilke
Yes. That quote. Yes. I am heading for my annual trip to visit my parents in Sanibel, Florida and I can’t tell you how much my time there relaxes my soul, my mind and my body. I have been taking this trip for at least 8 years now, and I always cry on the way home. I always swear that I am going to make changes in the pace of my life once back home.
I wish I could afford to pick up and go, live somewhere closer to the shore, somewhere warmer. Or, maybe it’s not just about the money, but about change. Embracing change and transition are not strengths of mine. Picking up and moving away from my family is not something I could do easily. Leaving the security of my job is something that scares me even though my job stresses me out frequently.
Stabilty is something that always wins out for me over serenity. That’s damn unfortunate but it seems to be part of who I am. Maybe someday this will change.
So, for now, two weeks this year – a week in January and another in March – I am going to Florida, to the sun, the sea and away from the day to day.